This is for a number of reasons.
1. WordPress for blackberry is slow as hell
2. Chastitymansion is an amazingly interactive place. In two days I have had kind and supportive words from a large number of caring people. I never knew such a friendly community would share my kink, and understand that I’m trying to go down the route to make my partner want me in a cuck/slave relationship.

So basically you can think of the move as selfish on my part because I will get more (some, any) input to my questions or queries or entirely unselfish as I want to share my life to a wider community, who may find benefit in my words.

So-check out chastitymansion.com

Hugs
X

So, I went out last night to the office party. And got drunk. And wore my device.

I have to say I felt tingly inside. I can’t imagine what it would have felt like if my partner knew, or if she had asked me to wear it. Amazing, I fill the cage just thinking about it.

I got home, removed the device, put it in my laptop bag and went to bed. Again – I gave myself NO relief. That’s unusual for me; I would have normally cracked one off.

I woke this morning at 6:30 when my little-un woke up. Normally my partner would have let me have the most wonderful of lie ins, however the shouty child was accompanied with the stench of something the cat had done. After sniffing around the house I found a little “gift” by the front door which I had to clean up.

I was then planning to go back to bed and rather the cracking one off with my morning glory I was going to refit the device.

However, what was REALLY REALLY nice, my partner laid with her head on my thigh and we cuddled whilst my daughter ate a banana and watched morning telly.

I have to say I felt quite vulnerable not being in the device and I wanted to either get hard or fill up the tube.

After breakfast, I went upstairs, got the device, chose the SMALLER ring (last night I wore the medium ring and now I struggled and managed to put the 2nd smallest ring on) and I’m back in front of my laptop, secure and happy. With the reduced ring I find that I fill the tube much easier. I was wondering whether the CB6000s would be more exciting or frustrating. I’m hard now and my foreskin is poking out the end of the tube, however when I’m “soft” I’m only about 1/2 way down the tube.

I think I might create a second set of pages in my blog to explain my thoughts on security and fitting – basically how I close the correct ring and spacer and my experiences with the POI – and perhaps if I decide to go down the route how good the KSD-G3 is and the CB6000s.

Oh – last thing before I sign off, my partner still doesn’t know, HOWEVER she did ask me to explain why amongst my clothes was a pop sock! Basically I use it to pull myself through the device to get a snug fit (DONT TRY USING A REAL SOCK OR YOU’LL BREAK THE CAGE!) I looked at and told her it must be a bit of a manky bit of old tights that one of the cats had been playing with.

Anyway – must go, really horny this morning and my partner is out tonight, so I think I’ll be locked in till around 11ish. I will make sure the keys are on her car keys; however it will make it awkward if I have to unlock myself once she’s through the door…. Unless I plan a surprise for her… Who knows, tonight may be the night.

Love

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Although I am swelling up inside the tube, I can’t keep my mind in conversation as I love the secret I have inside my pants. I look forward to getting home, taking my device off and spooning with my partner.

Hopefully she’ll give me release, however I think I’m more likely to sleep with my hardness on her back and I’m going have a restless night looking forward to replacing the cage tomorrow morning.

Love you all

X

Just waiting for my lift…

Secret CB wearer – office Party
As you might have gathered from my last post I’m a newbie CB wearer. My partner doesn’t know and I want to shout it from the highest tower that I want to be hers and hers alone. I want to feel myself “constrained” 24/7, unless I’m in her very capable hands.

I have a Chastity Journel at http://chasteinberks.wordpress.com where I will put all my hopes and dreams and I would love your comments and/or requests.

I will still read and post here because it seems that however sub or dom all you guys and gals are, this is an incredibly good and valuable resource and I have seen nothing on the forums other than support and genuine interest in peoples experiences.

I have seen serious BDSM mistresses giving kind and supportive words to vanilla and naive and inexperienced newbies such as me in a a supporting and fantastic way.

Guys this is a beautiful place. If you’ve made one posting you should be proud of yourselves.

Anyway – back on topic. I picked up the delivery of my cb6000 around 9:45 on monday. I have been wearing it almost constantly, since around 10am on Monday. I have shat, showered, shaved in the device with no problems (little bit of pinching or scratching when using the POI).

I’ve even slept beside my unknowing partner and got away with it – but realistically, with the exception of the 12 hours when I have slept without it’s presence, it’s been on me constantly.

I think that’s good going and shows my commitment.

However….

Tonight is the office party. An evening of drinking, a meal followed by karaoke. It’s likely that my partner will be in bed when I get home so if I wear it I can (probably) take it off without her knowing. I really do like a drink and will be drunk when I get home. I have a really good mate who has just walked out on his wife, so he will be drowning his sorrows, and probably buying me drink too. So do I…

1) Should I chicken out – leave the device at home and put it back on in the morning.
2) Should I wear the device, but take a key with me, just in case.
3) Should I wear the device, and leave the key at home, taking the device off when I get home
4) Should I wear the device, leave the keys in the office draw and see if I get away with a night out and in bed, without her knowing.

Guess correctly and there may be a prize….. actually, that’s a complete lie – there will be no prize. I have wordpress on my blackberry -

I may blog in the evening to let the world know.

I wont have access to chastitymansion.com, so if you leave a comment on chasteinberk.wordpress.com I’ll pick it up and reply.

Hugs and Kisses for your support.

X
 

Must be careful in future though – perhaps when my partner has agreed to the CB thing i will be more relaxed in myself, its just that I so want to tell her and have her accept it.

Anyway – off to the office party. I need to go home first to shower and clean up – question I have is

“Should I go with or without the device?”

Well, what do you all think? I’ll be drinking and therefore needing the gents reasonably often. A CB could be difficult, however wearing it and leaving it on and unlocking it when I get home could be a good test of my stamina….

I hope someone’s reading this journel. I would rather like it to be my diary of experiances….

X

Please do not be offended that I will never have cybersex with you. I will never want any of you to be my KH and it is highly unlikely that I will ever meet any of you.

This is my entirely selfish blog about me and the introduction of chastity into my life and the introduction of chastity to my partner. However I will always value all your comments and support. I will always respond to questions when I can, as communication will help me understand my feelings and if I can help another soul along the way it would be a gift to do so.

Many, many thanks for your support. I would like to put some of my comments on to the blog. I have left them anonymous and have asked the recipiants if I can post their comments.

“my boy/husband started me out slow and now we are strong and enjoying it.

We come from a strong backgrond that looks down on this so he had to show me the ideas and that it is safe. So give it time or ask her to join you on this mansion and maybe she will accept it and enjoy another way of life. It does not have to be 24/7, ours isn’t”

“I love your view of chastity and it’s something like our own.

I’m not heavily into demanding and forcing… although after a time, that does seem to creep into the equation.

I like to use chastity as an extended version of foreplay, as a way to channel pet’s thoughts and actions towards me rather than himself.

Therefore I like to have a proper brass lock with key. I can leave the key at home whilst I go to work. The only temptation I have to take the device off is to get in the car. Difficult to do whilst at work in a meeting.

Unfortunately this morning the lock which came with the device stopped working. I thought it was a little dodgy right from the start, however I have been perserviering.

Today though, I didn’t want to risk putting a lock on and it being broken – so I went to Millets on the way to work and bought a suitcase lock for £4.99. Unfortunately they only come in pairs, but there are multiple keys.

I have changed the lock from the combination lock to the padlock and have the device on now (at work again). I have left the keys in the glove compartment of the car. There they will remain until I leave work this afternoon.

Unfortunately they came with 3 keys. I want to put one on my partners keyring, but I don’t know where to put the other ones? Where can I put them so that

1. I cannot use them
2. In the case of emmergency they are available.

JUST HAD AN IDEA….

We hotdesk at work, however they will give you drawers to put stuff in. I could put the keys in the work desk, lock it, and leave that key at home. Therefore I would never be able to unlock the device without going between two separate locations. Something you certainly cannot do during a weekend!

I’ll let you know how I get on.