Morning after the night before

Eventually I popped on the combo lock and went to bed. I read a few things from altarboy which made me feel all warm in side (if you know what I mean).

Around 11 O’Clock I was very hot and horny and wanting release, but I’m going to be honest here – if my wife isn’t giving me release I’m not going to do it for myself – whether I am the KH or not.

So I had a shower with the cb6000 on. I washed all around. I then turned off the shower and took off the “cage” to check that all bits were clean. I thought this was a good time to do this. I then washed some more and then went back to the bed.

After lubing up around the ring (I use EROS Body Glide Black silicon based lubricant which is a lovely feel for sex) I locked myself back in with the combo lock and watched a TV show I had downloaded.

Around mid-night I started to feel tired so just in case I did fall asleep with with device on I took it off. I DIDN’T TOUCH myself.

Around 12:10 the front door went and my partner came in. She wasn’t tipsy but had had a few. After chatting for 5 minutes she came to bed. I was still wearing my leather thong; it really supports the device, but when the device is off it still feels nice to wear.

We soon started to cuddle, she stated that she wanted a quickie. I wanted to talk a little dirty (and plant the seed), but she asked me to stay quiet.

I politely asked if I could lick her down there and after a bit of giggling she said yes.

It was one of those occasions when she was not sensitive anywhere – very unusual for her. The nipples were firm, but not sensitive (except when I nibbled one a little more harshly than I should have done). I ran my tongue up and down inside of her labia and she did enjoy it, but when I tried to nibble her clit she called me back up and told me it wasn’t sensitive down there.

I then used my finger whilst kissing her, but she wanted me insider of her. It was then when she noticed that I was wearing my leather thong and I hard and straining to get out. She said that she felt really bad and if she had known earlier she would have come home.

Nethertheless, we removed it, she touched me (briefly) and then I came inside her.

We made love for 5 minutes or so and then she told me off for holding back (I always do that – I like to pleasure her for as long as possible), so I came.

For the first time for months we didn’t come together. Perhaps this was because I was so horny for her. I hadn’t come for 2 days (which isn’t very long) but I had been thinking about chastity for pretty much since I found the little red Post Office Collection slip on Sunday evening.

However, she knows that I want her. I’ve also planted a seed that I’ll always be there to pleasure her whenever she wanted.

I’ve also had the opportunity to tell her that I would and COULD (in capitals and in bold) never have an affair.

I’m at my office party tonight and she’s at a party tomorrow. Therefore I wont get a chance to speak to her about it till Saturday night, or perhaps Sunday.

As for the office party – should I wear the device, or not?

Free for the evening

She’s gone out for the evening. Before we put the kids to bed I took my device off and hid it and I put my key on her keyring. This was just in case she got amorous before going out and it would not be fair to explain to her before meeting all her friends.

As it was, she was late…

After she had gone I immediately got my device “kit” and started to change settings. I put a really small ring (2nd smallest) on which doesn’t fit my cock AND balls – then I used the sock method to pull my cock through what little gap there was.

Then I put the medium POI, a spacer and the cage on and secured it with a combination lock. I don’t like combination locks as I can’t set the combination and hide it – I’ll always know it (i’m good with numbers).

It felt great… until I started looking at some “pretty pictures” (type of which I will not go into here). WOW – with a really tight ring with engorges the cock the cage fills very quickly and the points are really hard!

To be honest it was a little too painful for me. My chastity experiance is NOT about that. Its being secure and knowing it. ( I spoke to the suppliers of the CB today and they’re sending me some more points to replace the broken ones – free of charge. I look forward to using them )

I remove the lock and PRISED away the spacer and removed the locking rod. Only then was I able to knock over the POI.

I then fitted a smaller locking rod and spacer (2nd smallest) and I’m back on with the combination lock. I almost put the main lock on whcih would have been difficult if I was caught asleep later), but I’m secure.

I NEED to say that:

• I DO NOT WANT TO BE OUT OF THIS DEVICE.
• I LOVE IT.
• I LOVE THE FEEL
• I LOVE THE “SECURITY”
• I LOVE THE FACT THAT I’M NOT LETTING MYSELF CUM because I want to wait until that moment when I can talk to her

In due course she will find out. I hope she’s up for this. I’m desparate to allow her to let me wear this securily and often…

2nd Lunchtime

I’ve removed the device briefly to reduce the size of the ring. I didn’t give myself release either.

I’ve given my partner a fantastic xmas surprise today. I told her about me taking her to see a show. This would normally mean a receptive girlie, however she’s too busy cleaning the house.

She’s out tonight (girls night out) and I will wear the device whilst she’s gone.

I would have liked to leave the key on her keyring, however if she come back “tipsy” and amourous it may be a difficult time to explain to her. Alternatively she could come back late and I would be asleep – again she might find more than she bargained for.

In either case I  think it’ll be entirely the wrong time to tell her about it, so I’m going to keep the key and the device off when I hear her come in or alternatively when I’m going to goto sleep.

In the meantime, I’m going to wear it for the remainder of the day. I can’t explain how great it feels to feel the caress constantly in my groin. I just wish she knew about it too…

Comfortable Nights Sleep

I had a really good nights sleep in the device. I’m still wearing it now and do not plan to remove it for my shower. I think that wearing a leather thong under my pj’s helped comfort. Also the larger spacer and larger ring helped.

If it all pays off I very would like to reduce the size of the ring from largest to the medium size. Apparently it can take a while for the ball sack to adjust to the constant pulling forward. Alternatively I could shave myself around the ball sack, however I think that my partner would notice and wouldn’t like it.

As for last night, my partner didn’t notice anything apart from I was restless. She hasn’t found out about the cb6000,however she did ask me if I needed to go to the doctors to get different anti-biotics (I have an infected finger) or sleeping pills.

I feel rested and confident with the day (work and play).

The kids are at school/nursery today and I’m working from home, so there is the possibility that I may pluck up the courage if she asks if we want to go upstairs for some playtime…

I’m excited and nervous for the new day.

Not tonight darling

I’m a chicken, I’m not going to tell her.

In a couple of weeks I’m going to take her out for a show. If I haven’t told her then I may give her a picture of the key during the date. I wont give her the key as I want to show my commitment.

However I have locked the device back on. I really want to remain hers, even if she doesn’t know. I have the largest ring and spacer/rod 3. I don’t expect any pinching. In any case – god I feel horny.

Telling her Tonight

Our Vanilla Relationship

If I can I’m going to talk to my Partner tonight.

She knows that I’m more kinky than her. I once left out a latex cock sock which I had been playing with and she was appalled, saying that it was really gay – and I threw it out.

We have been to Erotica Twice – both times unpleasant and embarrassing experiences. We always ended up thinking that the other was trying to get the other involved in stuff we didn’t notice.

After my partner went out for a girlie evening my partner commented that she was interested in buying a vibrator (I told you we were vanilla). Our friends read erotic literature whilst “playing”, so I was asked to speak to our very close friends as we know little about such things. On this advice we were recommended a “Double Date Love Egg”. Basically it’s an internal vibrating Egg with a Rabbit Eye vibrator attachment. - however it was very embarrassing asking our friends!

When talking to my partner about it she saw the device and was a little scared off and said that she sort of expected a vibrator – such as on Sex in the city, and perhaps we should do something about it after xmas.

Obviously I’m not going to let something like that get in the way so I’ve bought both. I shall present them to her during christmas week when we have no further family engagements. Annsummers do offer a refund policy as long as they’re unused (urgh!)

The last couple of times we’ve made love and been a little playful. She’s spent time over me making me lick her. I delight at this opportunity and enjoy it thoroughly. She rarely touches or licks me whilst performing such tasks as she says that she gets too carried away. She cums and orgasms and cums and orgasms and cums and then she feels guilty and asks me to go inside her. I sometimes feel as though I’m missing out on more fun when she asks me to go inside her, although I love that too. I would be happy for her to keep me on the edge all night and only at the end of the playtime let me come and cum in side her.

On occasion, when we’ve been in that position, which is a little submissive, she’s spoken “dirty”. With a little prompting from me, she’s said that she wants me to satisfy her wearing really tight pants which are locked on and I can’t get out of without her release. She even commented on me pleasuring her whilst locked up. Perhaps using a vibrator.

Obviously based on my previous posts this is rather hot and similar to my kink with a locked on 24/7[ish] device. She hasn’t a clue exactly how much this excites me – and she doesn’t have a clue what chastity actually is. So with the things that have occurred in the last couple of months I think NOW is the right time for me to boldly go where I haven’t done before.

The Question

I think I know what I want to say, but based on previous occurences (such as the above) I have to tread carefully….

I think her idea of a device is what I said in my first post – scary, all-encompassing and very BDSM.

I will take her into the bedroom where I will layout candles.

I will have my cb on with my leather thong (I checked it yesterday that you can’t see the cb when you wear it underneath)

I will wear my pyjama shorts on top. Then we will lay down and cuddle, but before she can “touch” me and have a [possibly] nasty surprise – I will tell her that before we make love I would like to tell her something…

I have done nothing wrong. I want to tell her that I am 100% committed to her and our relationship. I would never stray and never intentionally do anything that might upset, offend or scare her.

I want her to know that I’m more worried about broaching this subject and how she might think of me,  rather than hearing that she isn’t interested or horrified and never want to broach the subject again.

I want her to know that this is my true kink and it is something that

• she can ask me to never talk about it again and we will get rid of it
• she can accept but ignore it
• we can pursue it together

I want to remind her about our recent lovemaking where we have talked about controlling my release. I want her to know that I have bought something FOR ME but also FOR US. I have read about and wanted for many, many years. I want to try it and see if I like it.

I want her to see what it is, how I fit into it, how it feels and perhaps how it can fit into our lifestyle. I’m not just talking about our bedroom antics, but 24/7 relationship.

• I want her to know that it’s exciting for me
• I want her to know that it’s a tease for us
• I want her to know that it’s something that would make me happy.
• I want her to know it’s the biggest gift I could ever give her – my person.
• I want her to know that I am giving myself 100% to her and making sure that she knows that I will always be there for her.
• I want her to know that the physical feeling of being locked will remind me that I we are a couple and we’re always there for each other.
• I want her to know that giving her pleasure makes me feel electric. Wearing a device whilst performing these tasks would increase those feelings 100 fold – both for me and for her.
• If it isn’t something she accepts but doesn’t want to participate in, I do not want her to be scared if sometimes she feels between my legs and find that I’m wearing it. Wearing it does not mean I am in a kinky mood and want to play. It’s not because I don’t trust myself. It’s just something I want to feel.

I don’t want her to think that our life and relationship will need to change in any way, shape or form….

• I DO NOT want to be humiliated and called her cuckold – I really wouldn’t like this.
• I DO NOT want to change our bedroom antics so we’re 0% vanilla couple and only exist in a 100% subservient relationship

However if we want to share this experience things may progress …

• I don’t want her to inspect me and the device on a daily basis to ensure I am secure and UNCOMFORTABLY chaste, but from time to time, I would be love for her to ask me to put on the device any the promise of sex – or just ask me to show that I’m in it.
• I don’t expect to be in device 24/7 , although we could experience longer terms if it’s something that excites her
• I don’t expect to have to wear it when away on business, but if she would like me too that would be amazing. She could even purchase a combination lock so that she could release me on her command.
• I don’t want her to hide the key and refuse to give it to me ever, however keeping the key for me would be a turn on
• I don’t want to be treated like her personal servant and using the excuse of “Do X or you wont get relief”, however asking me to be loving or roleplaying such things may be exciting.
• I don’t expect her to deny me my orgasms, but on occasions denying me or teasing me so that I am denied or I am only released when I have been “amazing” would be electric.

This is my kink. If she doesn’t like it I will remove it and we’ll never talk about it again, but if she will indulge me I would like to show her it.

Then I will say I need to go downstairs and get it. I will tell her that it takes 10-15 minutest to put on. Then I will nip downstairs and get HER car keys – the ones she’s had all day. She will probably ask me why have been so quick, and I will tell her I’m wearing it.

I will then strip off my shorts. If she is receptive at this point I will suggest she feels it. Then I will show it to her.

After that…. who knows…

Almost Lunchtime

A couple of moments during the day I have had to go to the bathroom to adjust my chastity device, however for the last hour it’s settled down and it now feels really comfy again – just like it did when I was out walking.

I’m releshing this experiance, however whilst I write this post I have to say that the “swelling” in my groin is causing a little discomfort.

I’m even getting a significant amount of work done.

Pure Morning

I got up with the birds – and a crying 2 year old around 7am – quite late by normal standards. I gave her milk. Put her infront of the TV and went out to the car where I knew we had some superglue.

A few dabs – a small removal of skin (as you always do with superglue) -  but it’s all working again.

I left it for 1/2 an hour and then checked it all out. There were a few skuff marks where the glue had overran, but it worked perfectly.

Once the kids and partner were dressed I went back upstairs and put the device on – but again…

DISASTER

When I was deciding whether to wear POI1. POI2 or spacer I accidently snapped off the POI fitting at the top – fortunately it was the smallest of the POI – the ones with do very little. even without glue it’ll be ok, but I will fit it when I get home.

So I put the device back on, with the smallest spacer and closed the lock I’m wearing it now.

… at work

…with the lock at home

I did originally put the key on my partners car keys – then I would have no chance to take it off until I and she got home. However I’m still getting used to it and the fitting so if it’s agony I can always pop home – I’m only 10 minutes drive away.

It’s pinching a little, but it’s nothing I can’t handle.

Must stop blogging now – I really need to do some work.

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About last night

I didn’t tell her. She was completely exhausted from the day of running after a terror of a child. She went to bed around 11:00 and I joined her shortly.

She was already asleep – so I decided to put it back on. I didn’t expect “anything” of a amourous nature would happen during the early hours of the morning.

I must say, I’m getting a dab hand at putting it on, however I decided NOT to fit the POI or the spacer. Just to give me some breathing room.

I didn’t get much sleep. I kept feeling myself growing and contracting all the night. Around 2:30 I felt that it was pinching a little so I removed it for a check.

However when I put it back on I was too large. I decided that I would try the “sock” method where you put the penis inside a sock and pull it into the cage throught the hole. Great – it worked perfectly – until….

DISASTER

The device broke in two! I’d heard about this happening and if it is a clean break it’s easy enough to repair with a dab of superglue. But I wasn’t able to do anything till the morning.

I slept badly for the remainder of the night. I tried to sleep but couldn’t get out of my head what I wanted to say to my partner, and how to introduce her to the idea of me living a semi-chaste life style. Around 5am I had to give myself some relief and I exploded – probably from being so turned on by the idea all day.

I then managed to drop off into a dose till I was woken….

Out for the evening.

Well I’m out for the evening. I don’t feel as though I can tell my partner yet. She’s in a foul mood anyway – primarily because our 2yr old has been a monster all day.

Hopefully a shower will renew her spirits – followed by a nice glass of red.

I need to be 100% sure that she is happy and receptive to a nice cuddly chat.

Obviously this has meant that I’ve taken the toy off for now – however I’ve put it all back together in the Zip bag – just in case we do end up speaking about it and I feel as though I can show her.

I really do hope that she likes the idea – but I don’t think I’ll tell her tonight.

One last thing before I retire for the evening (or at least from writing this blog) I had a shower with it on. I had taken the POI off, but locked it back on whilst she was downstairs with the kids.

Our shower is amazingly powerful – mains pressure hot water! Putting the massage setting on the shower head meant that it got into all the knooks and crannies.

After the shower I took it off and checked myself over. I felt really clean – so I’ve done walking, sitting, showering, weeing and wearing.

Whatever next.

Hugs – night night